Writing More

Developing new habits or practices can be tough. One I am restarting is writing. My goal with this blog is to begin writing daily, again.

One outcome of daily writing is to hopefully discover ideas I could turn into micro-businesses. That’s not the only reason for the new writing practice. Clarity of my thinking is the larger goal. Clarity of insight into my own mind.

Why share my writing with you? Why would you consider a similar practice?

That’s a tough question to answer in some ways. Others who have done the thinking outloud in public practice say they got a lot out of it. I suppose being able to get feedback from readers can help clarify one’s thoughts even more. Very few people actually comment relative to the number of readers. Makes understanding what others are thinking about what you write more difficult.

Reader feedback regarding personal thoughts and feelings is a chalenge on its own. One’s feelings are one’s feelings. Nothing to defend or justify. They just are.

As far as thougths and ideas I am usually exploring. Which is much less about being right or wrong as being curious. Not everyone gets that especially online. Thus comment moderation.

The edgy, scary feeling of exposing one’s inner world to the outer world is present. Being fear based though makes it a good reason to go ahead and click the publish button. Take that, Mr. Fear!

For that matter, people commenting is also one of those fear things. Ahhh, they are going to say mean things about me! Getting over being invested in what people think of you is another reason to write and publish.

Maybe it is my age, turning 58 this year, but I have found myself letting go of being concerned with other people’s reactions to my choices. Especially, after going through the Covid years. Wow, trial by fire! Pushing back on bad public health policies and unethical medical mandates was a huge personal challenge.

Generally speaking, being concerned with people’s opinions turns out to be a poor investment of my time and energy. Let alone letting there fear and delusion impact how I live my life.

As far as my problem solving tool making side I have another website, https://hextxt.com. Hextxt is where I am keeping my technical notes and little hardware and software experiments. I have found having those notes on the Internet handy. Mostly, I am using it to be able to access configurations for different projects or systems here at home. Keeping them on my own public web site makes access by any device a super convenient resource.

Last night, I was brainstorming web application ideas before bed. I did get quite a few out of my head. Using Caddyserver as my webserver makes adding the apps as subdomains off the main site super easy. WordPress blog as the main site and Phoenix Liveview apps on their own subdomains.

Back to the theme of this post. Writing more. It is alot like how brainstorming last night trying to come up with 75 or 100 ideas was a lot easier than just trying to come up with one great idea.

The more you write the less stinky stuff you have to wade through to get to the good stuff. Our internal editors are way to good at their jobs! To the point they get in the way of getting anything out of our heads.

So here I am with thoughts to share with you, today. Clearing stinky mind sludge so one day I can share some rich compost from my mind garden.

Just keep writing is the key. Which I am not doing very well at the moment. Attempting to compose something palatable on the first draft just gets in the way. You gotta let the junk flow with the gold.

Topic wise, I am definitely drawn to self-improvement or personal growth. Writing about the occult is really one of my core interests. How do so? Been working on that one for quite some time. One of my role models is John Michael Greer at https://ecosophia.net. Love his work. The only problem is I am not him! He is a far better and vastly more expereinced writer and thinker than I am.

Sometimes I catch myself comparing my writing to his. Not a good idea. My voice and interests are unique. Developing your own voice and sharing your unique perspective on whatever you decide to write about is why people read your work. Being a copy of someone else really doesn’t come off well.

Writing more is how you are able to get to that point of uniqueness of voice and perspective.

Personal growth and mysticism specifically are where I see myself focusing for a while. Mysticism though feels hard to write about. Sharing personal experiences can be helpful for others. At the same time our heads can do funny things to us in the sharing. Pretty much, one way or another, it turns into a big ego trip.

Ego trips are pretty much huge distractions. Maybe more writing will help with figuring out what to share.

One are that is full of possibility in both personal growth and mysticism is over coming challenges and dealing with failures or weaknesses. So much material available!

How personal to get? I will probably need to come up with some guidelines. Most of us don’t want to admit our weaknesses while many people do enjoy rolling in others muck.

Again, comment moderation will help. Trolls are never helpful in conversations.

One fear I used to have which is much weaker now is sharing about my very unusual spiritual and occult life. Took me forever to get to where I didn’t llet other people’s opinions of my beliefs derail me. My answer was to be silent. Being silent is actually a very good thing with a lot of these practices. Build effectiveness. There is power in silence!

Only I was reading and learning from others on similar spirtual paths. They weren’t being silent. How do I resolve this apparent conflict if I want to share and help others?

What one shares is part of the answer. Sharing specific workings is just not a good idea. No reason to take the chance someone will decide to mess with your project.

Sharing more generally though? Sure. Techniques, discoveries, and such all feel like the kind of thing worth sharing.

I think that is about it for today. Got a little less sludge in my writing pipes. If all goes well, see you again tomorrow. Thanks for reading.